I would just like to thank everyone, for all of their support. Words cannot express my gratitude for all you have done, virtually, and in person. First off, all of you who contributed to Pay Pay...for Jake setting up the account, Christine for handling the whole money transfer setting up the acount and getting me the cards...my words cannot express the thanks....Jake and Linda for flying here for an extra 2 days to take me to a nice dinner and treat me to a much needed wonderful massage...Dr. Doo, buckeyes and pillows, and wonderful cheesecake...Mary, for wonderfu bath products....Barbara for the medical supplies, and Cindy as well (still have to go down and pick up the package)...Cheezy Joe for the CD's...and Kelly for coming down to hang out for a few days with me, Elvira, for Rafa and all of the contacts you helped me with...all of the wonderful flowers and pictures you have all posted, and the warm wishes for myself and my mom....

We just got back from the hospital and meeting with the doctor...seems mom has made a large step (jump) backwards, and after much discussion of medical terms and numbers, my final question was, would you consider her guarded or grave...guarded means you have a fair chance...grave, means you have no chance, it is a matter of time...she said "Grave." So, I am now trying to figure out what to do next...it could be tomorrow, or a few days...time to call work again and see if they can extend my remote working a little longer...or take the Family Medical Leave Act if they won't. I've been putting in 8 hours a day, but for some, that is not enough...anyway...I hope I haven't forgotten to thank someone, if I did, I'm sooo sorry, my mind isn't real clear right now...

My biggest thanks goes to Michael, my Honney Bunny...my best friend in the whole world, and my strongest supporter...who has weathered this so far with me calling crying one moment, and happy the next...definitely a rollercoaster...I could not have done any of this without you...I just REALLY wish you could be here...but circumstances prevent it...I LOVE YOU!!!

Cynde.....my heart aches after reading your last post. I am sending you all the strength and hope I have! Keep hoping, because miracles do happen!

LaDonna Pride

Cynde, little cactus flower, Our hearts and souls weep with you at this time..Please know that the angels are looking after your Mom, and she will be in good hands... Love to you all, Freddie

Cynde, We are still sending good vibes to PR. I agree with LaDonna and Fredster, try to keep your spirit up!!

Cynde, my heart goes out to you and tears are rolling out of my eyes at this moment.
Sending you and your family lots of strength to hang in at this really difficult time.
Every day I hoped that the situation would improve and it's hard to find out that it is not the case.


Hoping for the best,
Love
Diana

Cynde, please keep your spirits up, and listen to your inner voice. You have much much strength, and you have the strength of all of us as well. I love you sweetie. Hugs.

Kelly

Cynde. I feel so sad after reading your post, my heart is bleeding and the tears are just flowing so fast. Just try to hang in there gal. I am sending every ounce of strength in your direction to help you through this terrible ordeal. Thinking of you and your mom as always. Annie B.

Cynde,
I'm sending you good vibes and hugs today! Keep your spirits up! Give Velva a hug for me.
Yanagirl

Cynde, this is so sad. My heart is breaking for you. I will continue praying for your mother, you and your family. As LaDonna said, miracles do happen.

Tears and hugs,
Lisa

Dear Cynde,
I am shocked after reading your message, what can I say? I'm blank,....
Thinking about you.

Love,
Karin.

Cynde, I have goosebumps and tears with this last report...I am still sending lots of prayers and hugs...please let me know if there is anything else I can do!

My thoughts are right there with you, girl.

Sherry just went down to get your package Cindy...now I am really balling! Thank you, you are the best It was the socks for mom (which we will put on her today)...a lovely card with a picture of her and Jim...and a necklase with 3 different glass charms...One, and angel (which I'm wearing right now which was made for Cindy by a breast cancer survivor in PA, a glass fish (purple no less), made by a friend in New York, and an inside out pendant made with bore glass...they are all beautiful...thank you Cindy, it really touched my heart

Cynde, Joel and I are going through happy times right now, but that by no means has stopped us from thinking about you and hoping that everything gets better. We are still thinking about you, Eileen, Joel and IT.

Cynde & Family,

This is a hard news day for you.
Adding my prayers to everyone else's.

Barbara

the srength of the soul,
the power of hearts united,
the collective good that is found in the most unlikly of places,
these are the reasons we live...

honey bunny, you are my life, you are everything to me, and you can rest assured that there is nothing else you or anyone could have done. Mom and Dad would be and are very proud of you.

Michael, your post made me cry. I know how much Cynde misses you I wish you could be there with her. That poem was wonderful. Cynde is lucky to have such a great and supportive husband.

We're thinking of you and Velva too Cynde.

Jake & Linda

PS I'm hoping to hook up with Michael for dinner when I go to L.A. next week.

Cynde,

I am so sad to read today's news. I am sending you big hugs and love from my family to yours. It's really hard to think that we have to let go. I keep having hopes, but I also understand what grave means.

MIchael, you said the most beautiful things above. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

I don't know what else to say, but I feel a lot.

Love, Niki

Cynde and Michael;

I am not the best with words, but remember that miracles can and do happen every day.
Also, remember that just before this started, you had a wonderful holiday together.

I will be watching and hoping and praying for a miracle.

My heart goes out to you with all that you have endured.

Bill

We're just keeping you in our prayers. We don't know what else to say. Love, Joan & Alan

Cynde,
Gosh, I had no idea this was happening. I've been out of touch with the BTers for so long. I checked in and posted to today's BTcam, and LaDonna gave me the news that I had to check up on the situation. I've only read the first three days and today's posts in this thread, so I'm still a little in the dark about the problem. Don't take time filling me in--I'll catch up.

But this is not good news. I'm alarmed that you're still in PR. I'm alarmed that the situation has turned "grave." Things do not sound good.

You and your mother are in my prayers, and I'm going to ask the prayer chain to get busy as well. Both for peace for both of you, strength for you, and recovery for your mother, if that is His will.

Dan

Michael, very nice words, they make me cry, too. Cynde is very lucky to found you and the other way around. Wish that everything works out fine.
Still keep all of you in my thoughts.

Diana

Cynde and Michael and all your family:
You are in my heart and in my prayers. Make sure you take care of yourselves also during this dreadful time. Big hugs to you all.
Josie

Cynde, I have no words to say how sorrowful this is. I guess we just have to leave it in the gracious and merciful hands of God now. Will continue praying for peace and comfort for Mom and you and all. I am with you in spirit and giving you big hugs and loves.............Kris

Cynde and Michael,
There's nothing we can say that will make this time any easier for you, but there's a lot of us lurkers out there who are thinking and praying for you and your mom.

Cinthia, I was holding back my tears reading your msg but reading Michael's msg couldn't hold them back. You are both lucky to have each other specially at times likes times. See you tomorrow!
Prayers and good vibes are send your way. A BIG HUG, Elvira

Very sorry to hear the news. Strength, hugs, thoughts and prayers.

Thank you everyone for your kind words, and HB, you are AMAZING, Those words express exactly how I feel, and I am so grateful that we have each other...I am not giving up hope, however, I know it is grave. The nurses let us stay longer this afternoon, and then told us to take any "unecessary things" in her nightstand with us...guess you know what that means...anyway, need to get a bit of work done...thanks everyone...

Cynde it is OK to Let Go and Let God....... Let Him/Her deal with this at this point YOU as a mere Mortal cannot do any more than you have already done, You have loved her and held her and done the best anyone in these circumstances could possibly do, now is the time to put your faith into His/Her hands, and let Him/Her do all the work.. The only thing you have to do now is to be there with her..and tell her it is alright to Let Go Let God.... We love you Cynde...

Cynde.....Freddie said it the best....and I have no other words....my heart is breaking for you.....big hugs.....We love you!
LaDonna

good words Freddie, very good words.

Cynde, you are the most amazing daughter, I can't say any better what Freddie just said so well. Sometimes it is hard to go with God's will but I hope that you both can find peace and comfort in his love which has been made mortal by all of your very dear friends and wonderful husband. Love, Barbara

Cynde,
thier is no thanks needed we love and care about you. Do not give up I know it looks grim but you know from reading on the ards sight thier was plenty of times people thought they werent going to make it and did .I havent post in the past week but have been checking up reading afraid I might say the wrong thing just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers daily.

Cynde
You know there's a ton of people out here pulling for you. Consider that you got virtual hugs, real tears and mucho virtual hands to hold. If you can't always be the strength Let Us Help you in any way we can. I know I don't have to say this, but wise old cheeseman got two things to say "ask this crew for help and you got it......any way, any time" and "don't forget to take care of Cynde"

End of sermon and serious comments from the cheesester. You should get a package from me tomorrow afternoon if Fedex don't lie.

BIG OLE HUG
El Joe

Cynde,

I have been following this thread with a special interest because my father has been in the hospital, on and off a ventilator for the last two months (he went in on the 25th of Feb). His situation is a surgery that went bad. It was not through any fault of the doctors. Without going into great detail, we had to make the decision two weeks ago as to taking him off of the vent. All the doctors involved with the case said he could last a matter of hours, or several days. He had developed many complications from the surgery, and everyone was telling us that he would not have a very good quality of life from that point on. This is what is amazing; two days ago he was transferred to a nursing home near his home town, and is making progress. I don't know what the future will bring for him, but we were prepared to loose him two weeks ago, and he is still with us. All I can say is that God works in mysterious ways. I know your situation is much worse that what we are going through, but I can identify with the emotions of what you are dealing with. May God be with you in making the hard decisions that you are facing. Friends and family are so very important at times like these, and from what I have seen and read, you have many of those.

Robert

Cynde, I'm so sorry about your news. Bob and I send all our best wishes, we really do know how you are feeling and we are thinking about you. Remember to take care of yourself too.

I don't know what 2 say...
I really had the idea things were starting 2 look better 4 u, Michael and your mother. Please don't give up hope! U never know what might happen.
Cynde & Michael, take care of yourself and each other.
Sending even more love and hugs your way
Igor & Cinthie

ps Cynde have u received any flowers 2day?

You all are still so amazing...Joe, I will be looking for the package...now, if I can only remember if FedEx delivers to PR on Saturdays...hmmm...

Robert, very inspiring reading about your father...I'm not giving up hope, and we didn't empty her dresser drawer like they asked...

I just have to tell you all that you are such wonderful friends, and you have been such a support...I just received a phone call from Martin and Angela, all the way from Holland with hugs...you are truly an amazing group of wonderful caring people...thank you (still crying at my keyboard)...

Cynde, like I told you earlier, the world is getting smaller and smaller. Just remember we (and we is this whole group of amazing people on BT!!!) are there to help you in any way possible.

Hugs and hang in there!!!

You can't give up hope Cynde, Joel and I are still hoping for you. A HUGE hug from me.

Eileen, thank you, but what are you doing here, you are supposed to be at the hospital having that baby! Now get to it!

Cynde, I am thinking of you so much today. I wish I was there to hug you and make you smile.

Cynde,

I am so sorry to read today's news. You know that we are all still here for you and we will always be here for you. Hang in there. Things can still turn around. Prayers, strength and good thoughts from Florida.

Dr. Doo

Sorry Cynde, Baby is stubborn, like it's future mom!!! LOL!

I agree with Cynde, Eileen. Get to the business of having our new BTer will ya !

Lots of positive thoughts to you and Joel today. Can't wait to meet our new baby...

Hang in there Cynde, remember all the negative reports the dr's gave me on Jim. They can only guess. Never give up. Hugs and Prayers and keep holding onto the angel. Cindy R

Cynde and Michael, I am so sorry to hear what you are going through right now. Just have faith that things will work out as they should. Michael your words made me cry, Cynde is lucky to have you and you are lucky to have her. Freddie your words also made me cry. You are all in my prayers this afternoon and I am so sorry.

Lisa

Cynde
I know I am new to this board but have been following the posts for the last month or so....I wish you & your family the strength to help you through this time....keeping my fingers crossed for your mum to pull through! May God be with you all!

Cynde,

Colorado Hugs from Princess Lurker !! (I decided I can't be Queen Lurker if I post once in a while).

No words can express what I'm feeling for you, your mom, Michael....all I can do is let you know that I care and you are all in my prayers.

Cynde,
I just read your post from this morning...I am stunned& with tears in my eyes... but not surprised... Be strong and feel confident that you have done everything that could have been done. I will email you privatley...
Warm hugs from Massachsetts....

Cynde, you have mail

There is a saying from St. Juliana [I think] from Norwich that goes:
All shall be well
And all shall be well
And all manner of things shall be well

I have been saying it over and over for you and your mom today. If I knew how to make a wav file I'd make one for you with me saying it to you then you could listen to it, and repeat it over and over to yourself too.

I send you love and angels of courage, acceptance and persistance

Keep your pecker up as we northerners would say.

Cynde,

I checked in expecting/hoping to hear of some progress on your Mom. Then I return from a day of diving work and read this sad post. I have only been on line checking BT ocasionally this week as my other job (moorings) has kept me busy.

Like others here Velva and you have been in my heart, hopes and thoughts each morning and night.

We all sure prayed for a different outcome, and still are!!!

My heart goes out to you and your family in this time. You and Sherry have been such great daughters.

Be strong and know you are thought of fondly by us all.

T

Cynde and Michael....there is not much more I can add that everyone else has not beautifully said and expressed already. Oh, my heart bleeds for you. I have been where you are. Be with Mom and let her know you are there. You have done everything and moreso than anyone can do. I understand. Be with Mom. Hold her and love her and reassure her everything is fine with you and for her.

Michael....you are such a sweetheart. You are both beautiful people who have found each other in the travels of life. It is wonderful that there can be so much support even with thousands of miles physically between you. Truly beautiful.

I hope things will change for the better, Cynde, but I also hope Mom will be at peace and comfortable. We are all praying for you. Whatever happens now, we are with you. Carole and Joe

Cynde - My dear BT friend - I just came over to this post after a long meeting with a client. Right now I am grateful that most everyone has gone home for the day - as I am crying over my keyboard!!!

Freddie said it best - Let God take care of things - your job is to be there for your mom and let her know how much you love her - which you have been doing marvelously over the past 4 plus weeks!!! You have done and will continue to do the right thing for your mom!!!!

Sending you strong thoughts and lots of prayers.

Big HUGS from NC - know that you have a world of friends right here for you!!!

Lots of love
Mary

Cynde - if you can bring the BT angel into your mom's room for it to watch over her.

Cynde,

Just reading the threads today. Good thoughts for you and Velva. Most hard work you have been doing for her. As someone above said, there comes a time... Not easy... Been there, done that.

"Keep your PECKER UP" Jenni??????????????? Cynde you must tell mom that one!!!! you people in the north are a wild bunch if I do say so....
Thoughts and Prayers for you Cynde....and wondering just what the heck Jenni meant..LOL

Freddie. It sort of means keep being strong, hang on in there, keep going, don't give up, etc. etc. Annie B.

That's the best way I can explain it anyway.

Cynde, Add me to the long list of people thinking and praying for you and your family. Stay strong - Hugs from Wyoming.

Cynde......The tunes are on your way DHL, Guaranteed next day delivery. I'm sending your tracking info to the sbcglobalnet address. Be prepared to spend an hour untaping them.....my dad raised me to think that you could never have too much tape or too much twine and they had the coolest tape dispenser at DHL.

Chin Up girl.....now the cheeser is even without words....the outpouring of support in this thread even brought a tear to these ole jaded eyes. Thanks for the grin Freddie, I think we all needed that.

Closing with a hug bigger than the great southwest

cheeser

OK, this has certainly been a non-stop crying day...BARBARA, THANK YOU FOR THE BLUE SMURF HATS....I knew I would forget something, and you sent the ankle/elbow/smurf hats....and I'm so sorry I didn't thank you! THANK YOU!!

Mary, odd you should ask about the BT angel you sent...they had put it in her "dresser" and so I took it home...today I told Sherry I wanted to take it back, so I put it in my purse and told her remind me that I had it there (working on about a quarter brain about now)...anyway, we were there about a half an hour and Sherry said, "Where's the angel?" So I put it on the bed above her head on the mattress...and we were laughing, because Mary taped a BT purple flag on the hands of the angel...and we know that they would be wondering what it meant...as we left, the nurse looked at it said something for "Angel" (I think)...so the BT angel is watching over mom tonight...

Joe, so I will need to borrow the sissors in the office to get the package open (I only have hair shears at the moment, for the "hair fix")....

Sherry and I are having LOTS of wogga at the moment, so all I have to say is...

"We're going to keep our peckers up, and could you please knock us up in the morning."

(I hope I said that right....)

LOL, Cynde! Why, yes, I believe you DID say that right!

Hugs and blessings for you, Mom, and Sherry now! Oh, and Michael too!

Cheryl

Cynde, I'm sooo glad you didn't clean out the dresser like they asked you to.

Stay positive, it wasn't that long ago that you posted when you thought she might not make it through the weekend, and she pulled through. Your mom is obviously a strong-willed lady, just keep telling her she's going to make it.

Keeping you all in my thoughts...

Cynde,

So sorry for not "chiming" in earlier, we have been dealing with medical problems with our parents also. Our thought and prayers are with you and your family. After all this is over, please contact me, we would love to offer you our home in Bonaire for a nice vacation, no charge of course! Lord knows you will be needing it. Your "Honey Bunny" and you will be needing some quiet private time...

Hugs,

Ed and Liz Ginocchio

Cynde,

There are so many things I would like to be able to say that could make you feel less sad. But when I try to put them in writing they just end up hollow and bombastic.

I'll give it a go anyway.

Over the last couple of weeks there has not been a single day gone by that I at least once thought about you and your loved ones and the terrible situation you are in .
I tried to "send" as much positive "vibes" your way as I could.

Your news of the bad news from last morning made me cry , ( and I'm a "big guy" , so I don't weep easely). Like so many before me , who said it better and wiser, I can only give you my virtual hug and support and I hope you can make your mother feel how much you love her and care for her .

Sjosssss

and to all BT-ers ,I ( once again ) say : You are the best , I'm proud to know you all.

LOL Cynde! Yes, gal you said that right!
Thinking of you and Sherry, and sending you love and courage and strength, and sending your mom peace and love and healing light - wherever that leads.

sjoss, you're making me cry again

Cynde

I agree with Sjoss whole-heartedly. I have had to explain to my colleagues that if they see me crying it is because I am reading the threads. I send you much love, big hugs and peace from Guernsey (a small, unfortunately non-tropical Island of France).

Not a day goes by when I don't think of you and yours.

Still hoping for a miracle for you.

Annie P x

Cynde:

Sending my love and prayers to you and your family.

Sally